In a blog entry a couple of months ago, I explained about being let go from a job I absolutely lived for. I still have nights that I can’t fall asleep because my mind is consumed with losing my job. So many questions go through my head, specifically, WHY?
Several months ago I was attending Sunday school with my 3 year old, Huckston- we call him, Hucky for short! Hucky’s class only consisted of girls, so it’s safe to say that Hucky did his own thing and usually did not pay attention to the teacher- his Aunt. This specific Sunday, the kids were learning about Esther. Most of the girls were listening attentively about this beautiful queen who lived in an amazing castle. Something must have caught Hucky’s attention, as well because he started to ask me questions. As the teacher elaborated on how Haman hated the Jews, he looked up at me with the sweetest, most innocent face and said, Mommy, Haman didn’t like the “juice” was it grape “juice?” I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry! This sweet little 3 year old with glasses and dimples as deep as the sea was paying attention in Sunday School. He may not have gotten the whole story, but he was listening. Haman may have hated the Jews, but Esther was patient and willing. She kept her faith and waited for God to use her. Just like dealing with not knowing my place after losing my job, Esther did not know why God had placed her in a situation, but He did.
Through prayer and meditation, I now feel that God has placed me in my current situation “for such a time as this.”
After a couple weeks of being off work, I helped Hucky learn to use the potty and to this day he has never had an accident! It is a miracle. He also declared that he wanted to start going to preschool. I signed him up for preschool at a local church. He goes 3 days a week from 8:30-11:30. If I were still working, he would not have been able to have this opportunity. I would not have a way to get him to and from school. He has learned so much in just a few weeks. As we were leaving preschool the other day he looked up at me and said, “Mommy… you ate the bad fruit!” I knew he had been learning about Adam and Eve. I knew in my heart God had placed me in this situation “for such a time as this.”
Almost immediately after I was dismissed from my job, my Mom found out that she had to have surgery to repair a torn rotator cuff. This surgery takes 3-6 months to heal with 3 sessions of physical therapy per week. If there were a scale for people who like to have every hair in place and make up on, Tammy Faye would be a 10 and my Momma would be about a 7… minus the extreme eyelashes. If you are a woman and you’ve ever tried to fix your hair and make-up with one hand, you know it’s a challenge. I have been able to go to my Mom’s every morning and play beauty shop. With the help of my Sister, we make sure she is beautiful to attend therapy- jewelry, matching shoes, the whole 9 yards! I have been able to make my Mom’s days brighter during this healing process and have created memories that I will cherish forever- “for such a time as this.”
I have a best friend that has been by my side since birth. She recently had her second child and I was able to travel 3 hours away and play midwife. This week, I will travel that road again and play nurse and nanny after her Mother goes back home and her husband goes back to work. I would not have gotten this opportunity “for such a time as this.”
Since my dismissal at work, I have helped start a new church- New Beginnings Fellowship Church; I’ve started painting, designing, creating, blogging, exercising. I know without a shadow of doubt that I am exactly where God wants me to be. I know my story doesn’t hardly compare to a commoner who became a queen and risked her life to protect her people, but I know that God has placed me in this situation “for such a time as this.”
He knew I needed this time and most importantly that others needed me.